Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Its Not Too Late For 2015

hey fellas, welcome to 2015. its not too late for me to say that. am i right? so, for the upcoming month of january until now. i didnt do any kind of works that keep me move on. moving on in life is a very subjective matter to discuss. its because we know that when we in love with someone, we will put his or her name in our heart.we carve his or her name in our heart. then, we realize that he or she left us without any pointless reason. when we want to throw away his or her name, its become very hard until the scar is still there. moving on is very hard but the sweetness will come after that. i dont know if i can do that or not. still we must have effort to do that.

Monday, September 22, 2014

Aku Pendamba yang Hina

Diriku ini dahulunya megah,
Namun hilang apabila engkau tiba,
Semua kemegahan ku singkir,
Agar sentiasa berada di sampingmu.

Cinta tidak boleh dipaksa,
Jika cinta kata pergi,
Pergilah cinta bersama angin menderu,
Keperitan atas kepergian harus segera direlakan.

Bunga Nirmala Yang Ku Getarkan

disaat diri ini terjatuh,
engkau masih tersenyum menyambutku,
masih menghadiahkan senyuman manis,
sedang diri ini hina di mata manusia.

engkau melayaniku seperti selayaknya,
tanpa menghiraukan pangkat serta darjat yang ada,
engkau seperti bunga nirmala,
penyelamatku di kala sepi dan sedih.

sirna matamu mencerminkan kebahagiaan,
tiada sekelumit rungutan yang bersubur dihatimu,
aku mensyukuri kepada - Nya,
memberiku peluang bertemu nirmalaku

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Do What We Have To Do

Hey guys, i know i just two days ago updating my blog but who cares! its my blog not ur blog or ur mummy blog. nah, dont be offended. juz kidding yall. ok this week i must make revision for three subject for next week test. nah, as usual lazy lady will knock at my brain to visit me. nah, dont care much about lazy lady knock coz dont care bout the knock.

the thing that i care is how i want to revise the subject and study for the subject. i thought that goin to library i can get the spirit of study but still its the worse thing i do coz nothing happened. i went to library juz to watch dankhoo vids? shit happens! and now im addicting with 'Arjuna Beta' sings by Fynn Jamal. yeah its kind of melodic and the meaning of lyrics was wonderful.

my thought i went to library juz to see her but still she doesnt come. ahh, what a waste! still thats not a good excuse to go to library though. yeah, i got bad intention to go to library so thats why i couldnt concentrate on my study. ok fellas thats all for today i think coz i dunno what to think n i hope there will be a good thing happen. daa

Friday, May 9, 2014

So Long Not To Express Myself

How ya doin' fellas? actually its very long time that i didnt write my expression or whatsoever in this blog. its kinda rusty now u know. so aku malas sebenarnya nak cakap english sebab english aku pun dah berhabuk macam aku punya blog ni. jadi, aku cakap bahasa kebangsaan sahaja. malas pulak nanti orang cakap aku 'koya' cakap english pulak. jadi, memang agak lama aku tak jengah blog aku. sian si DC ni tunggu aku. punyalah berjanggut juga dia tunggu aku dalam blog ni sebab dia mana ada anggota nak makan atau gerak. 

sebenarnya memang dah lama dah aku nak tulis tapi tak berkesempatan atau tidak berkesempaian aku pun tidak tahu. sebenarnya aku tak boleh lupakan dia. walaupun perkara ni dah lama dah berlaku. dah hampir setahun tapi perkara tu masih dalam ingatan aku. selalu juga aku luahkan pada rakan sekelas aku namun reaksi yang sama akan berlaku.

ayu cakap " udah le ifan, kamu lupekan jele die tu." mudah cakap dari perbuatan.
afifah cakap " alah ifan. bakpela nak tehegeh hegeh kat die. die tu tak pandang kamu pun." memang dia tak pandang aku pun.

aku pun dah minta pertolongan pada rakan sekelasnya namun jawapan hambar yang aku terima. walhal aku sedar siapa diri aku. ingat senang ke nak melangkah ke hadapan tanpa memandang ke belakang? aku pun selalu terjatuh semasa memandang ke hadapan saja tau! 

tapi, aku sedar satu perkara. aku akan berusaha untuk melangkah ke hadapan tanpa memandangnya walaupun hanya jelingan kerana aku tahu dia memandang tanda menyampah ataupun meluat. Irfan go Irfan!

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Little Bit Nervous and Little Bit Dissatisfaction

Okay, take a deep breath and smile. smile is a cure for sadness. yeah, today is a big day. im gonna take my exam
for childrens literature. although its third time im taking an examination, but still im in panic and nervous situation. panic and nervous situation are an ordinary thing happens when people are taking an examination. im a little bit dissatisfied coz my batch semestar two degree still goes for a last day before semestar break. yeah well coz almost every semestar we got to stay at this IPG for the last day. im so angry about this but i try to think positive about it. mom's always said that positive thinking can make our day cheerful.i try to think positive. still, my attitude does not change at all. still a kid that want mum cuddle and my childish make my close friends call me 'adik'. nah, not so frustrated about that coz i know them very well. okay, thats all for today, if i have news im gonna tell you all. chiao.............


p/s : what bout my pic with zakri? is it my tummy same with him?

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Hallucination that become reality

Dengar laraku, suara hati ini memanggil namamu
Karena separuh aku dirimu

when this song at this line. i think a while about it. so is my half self is yours, then can i live with the half?? hell no! because i need my fullself to live dude. but when i think twice, my tears will falling down because i always think of my past of always play with girls heart. now i get a karma. girls always hurt my heart. i think i need to be patient with this situation because God knows the best. and i must be a sincere person after this and just ignore what people talking because they just talk and talk and don't want to think for a while. i think i wanna stop texting unimpoertant people because i have more job to do. da.... wish me luck for all the job i do